26/ 08/ 2015
Funny how I felt so ugly in high school,when that must have been the prettiest episode of my existence, high cheekbones,supple skin,tiny but perky boobs,taut butt,shiny hair ,naked lips-no lipstick (not even a lip gloss),no makeup no foundation …(and the list could go on).
what seemed like congregation of pubescent admirers did not change the way I looked at myself, In fact their presence confused me (why do these crazy sweaty boys like me???).
I was way too insecure that a pimple will make me skip school back then,I felt worst than “the” ugly duckling.
My feelings of inadequacy caused more trouble than what I needed,one time I decided to give my self a hair cut (because I thought a shorter bangs would make me feel better),but I cut it way too short and ended up the laughing stock in the class (I know,I know everything too much is bad).
Being around with someone I like felt like a disastrous diarrhea was going to happen.I had relationships through love letters, and had boyfriends whom I never held hands with (tsk,sayang).
Sweet 16 was when my walls disintegrated.
I had no choice,I met a super hero whose super power was to make my knees loopy.He transformed this ugly duckling into (not a swan – duh) still a duck but a better kind.
We held hands when we thought no one was watching,shared french (kiss) like we were working on our masters degree but made sure we didn’t cross 3rd base doing it (I behaved till after college).
But he broke my heart (awww ***too soon I know,but don’t worry we shared about a million of “I like yous”,sweaty palms and more,,, before he decided to abandon ship),,,, I could actually continue this story by telling you that,,,,,, “his absence crippled me”,but then that’ll be too cheesy.
Then continue with the line “But I had to move on”???,okay fine I moved on,went to college met new friends,and met few awesome guys whom I shared my masters in “french” with,I’m actually really good at this,so good that now I have a PhD and sharing this degree with my husband,happy ending wasn’t it?,wink wink.
P.S. And yeah actually, that duckling in now a swan.
P.P.S. Random thoughts after reading too much teen books.
Top is a dress, worn as a shirt,both top and jeans are recycled from some of my previous posts.
I added this super long earrings in green and gold to add life to my boring black and white outfit.
What do you think?
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