08/ 09/ 2015

I GET JEALOUS TOO

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DISCLAIMER:SOME PARTS FICTION SOME PARTS ARE NOT, DECIDE WHICH ONE IS WHICH.

I might have felt ugly, but I never felt lesser than anyone.

I am the best!, grandma warned me about that,my friends told me that.

My sisters acknowledged that, my teachers complimented that.

MAMA MADE ME THAT.

You will listen to me,look at me,talk to me.

You’ll be in awe.

And when you feel like you’re better than me?I will make you realize hell no you’re not.

I enjoyed every compliment I got for being the best.

I savored it,swallowed it,flaunted it.

This is my world.

I did not painted it this way,they painted it that way,and I said graces for it.

There’s no exception to the rule.

You’re my teacher? I’m better than you.

You’re my neighbor? I’m better than you.

You’re my friend? I’m better than you.

This went on for so long that I got confused,because it didn’t feel good overtime.

It felt burdensome not acknowledging everyone’s worth around me.

It felt like a CHARADE and I’m tired of rehearsing to put up a show.

I want to tell you you’re awesome,but I couldn’t.

 PRIDE and self-righteousness are the culprit.

For the longest time, I want to show the world that I have weaknesses too,that I get jealous,that I don’t feel awesome all the time,that I get insecure too.

Took so much courage to admit to the world all that.

But that’s the only way to free myself from the bubble I was wrapped into.

I SWALLOWED MY PRIDE.

Now I can compliment you,Now I can say nice things about you,I can lift you up more,now we can both share the joys  this world has to offer.

Finally your dress looks awesome,your abs look great,your blog is inspiring,your shoes is to die for,your cooking skill is exceptional,your photos are fantastic.

AND IT’S LIBERATING.

(I’ts not sweater weather yet specially in AZ,but can you blame me for wishing it is?)

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Thanx for visiting my blog,xoxo.



52 responses to “I GET JEALOUS TOO”

  1. Nicole says:

    I have pants just like that! Very cute outfit!!

    Xo
    Nicole
    http://www.pinkpencilskirt.com

  2. Danielle says:

    Love the sweater! This is a nice look for a cold day!

    http://www.spring2spring.com

  3. Lubka Henry says:

    Interesting writing 🙂
    I’m glad you’re free now.

    And plus, you look fab in a sweater, no matter of the weather!

    Lu | http://www.balgarka.co.uk

  4. Great post, I don’t get jealous much, but I do envy what others have quite a bit and I can get angry if I feel I am wronged, : O

    Allie of ALLIE NYC
    allienyc.com

  5. Josie says:

    I love what you’ve written! It takes courage to swallow your pride, but you’re right – it’s SO liberating!! You look lovely too x

    Josie’s Journal

  6. Missy May says:

    This is a great Fall outfit. I love every piece here, Bing. You look wonderful. :))

    missymayification.blogspot.co.uk

  7. That is so good! Love the outfit! I wear sweaters too, can’t blame you for wishing it was sweater weather!

  8. Paola says:

    Super stylish from head to toe!!!!
    Thanks for your Lovely comment Bing!!!!
    xo Paola
    Expressyourself
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  9. Krissie says:

    Love this post – so sassy and great what you’ve written

    Krissie x – http://pearlsofstyle.blogspot.com

  10. Pru Yeo says:

    Love you look for Fall, especially the cool booties! Beautiful writing too, it’s true that pride and self-righteousness can be so suffocating so it is important to let go…..

    Prudence
    http://www.prudencepetitestyle.com

  11. Trang Do says:

    Love your post! Every word in this post was inspiring me!! You look great!!
    Xoxo,
    Love from http://www.trangscorner.com {a lifestyle, fashion, beauty, and food blog}

  12. venussmileygal says:

    Like how you wrote it. I can relate.
    Would wish for a sweater weather if I have that sweater as well.. 😀

    (◕‿◕✿) EmoteraGoddess.com | Instagram | Bloglovin

  13. Great post! Being kind is much better than being proud and bitter. Great outfit too! xo

  14. Amber says:

    I’m always wishing for sweater weather. This is a great look!

    Amber | y a c h t s m a a n

  15. valentina ioana says:

    nice words..lovely pictures

    http://www.eager4fahion.com

  16. I love your words– so inspiring.
    Btw, you look chic in that sweater.
    The Bandwagon Chic | Instagram | Bloglovin | Snapchat: bandwagonchic

  17. Beautiful words Bing. You look gorgeous sweetie. You shouldn’t feel lesser than anyone. No one should 😀

    xx Mira

    http://www.glamdevils.com

  18. Diane says:

    Thank you for sharing your thoughts!

    Diane

    http://www.petiteinparis.com

  19. Tega Enai says:

    Beautifully written!

    Tega Enai
    http://www.tegaenai.com
    xoxo..

  20. Bash Harry says:

    Oh, this is beautiful Bing! I think you should always maintain a balance. Know that we are all equal, and we all have our strengths and flaws. This is amazing <3

    xx Bash | Hey Bash | bloglovin’

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